I have a confession to make. and it's not a pretty one. I don't like doing things I'm not good at. I've never been one of those people who can take a look at a part of themselves that's weak and work to make it stronger. I have to already have an interest and a natural ability for it and then I am more than happy to develop it.
But that's not to say I can't/don't work hard, or that I can't learn new things. It's just that it doesn't come naturally to me. So it's hard for me to keep going at something when I feel like I'm failing. Like applying for jobs, applying for art things, getting out of bed in the morning. haha Some days it's a lot like this!
Right now things feel a little sucky. Rome rejection, another job rejection, some other art issues that feel like failure. But then I read a story about Hideaki Akaiwa diving in to the tsunami to save his wife, and then 4 days later putting on that diving gear again to find his mother. Or a heart wrenching story about how socks and letters are making people happy when they have nothing left. And about all the people and animals who are dead, devastated, or displaced in Japan and I feel really ashamed and weak. I have nothing to complain about compared to thousands of people in Japan. Don't even get me started about the rest of the world. Not to mention the people I know who are struggling with their health, or people who have been unemployed a lot longer than me, or the homeless just down the street.
I'm going to try to remember the good things and try not to let the every day "life" things add up and get in my way!
Happy Saturday everyone! I hope it's sunny where you are!
*But that's not to say if I had a job I loved that it wouldn't fulfill some of those desires to create and make difference in other peoples lives. If I could only find that job creating art that would save the world! :)