Friday, January 21, 2011

The Hold Out.

I've been holding out on you.  I know, I promised to be open and honest.  To discuss the toils and turmoil or unemployment as well as the handmade struggle.  The big secret?  I had a job interview two weeks ago.  The morning of the break in.  I honestly wasn't sure how it went, but now, I'm preparing for my second interview in a couple of hours.  I'm torn.  Conflicted.  Nervous. Excited.

On one hand, I need money and health insurance would be nice.  On the other hand, I feel like I'm cheating myself and my art by going back to working a "day job".  And I'm not willing (yet) to take just any job. I need it to be a good fit for me.  I need the culture of the place to be thriving and uplifting.  I'm not afraid of hard work as long as it's not in a stifling negative environment.  In my first interview I asked a lot of questions about the company and culture.  The answers sounded good.  That coupled with the information on their website seems positive.  They have two positions available. One full time and one part time.  I would love the part time position if the pay etc. works out.

I've worked a lot of years at jobs that made me miserable a lot of the time.  I feel like this is my chance to finally do what I want, when I want.  But is this realistic. Am I really willing to live in a van if it means not working at a job I dislike?  I want art to be only second to my loved ones and pets.  Not a job that isn't fulfilling.  Life is too short to continue to do things that make us miserable.

Am I crazy to post this info on a public blog, where any potential employers can see? Maybe. But they should know who I am. What I stand for and why.  If I take a job I will do it to my best ability.  And if I'm not happy there I will look at why and do all I can to change it.   All I'm asking for a is a good fit.  For me and the company.

do i look smart? :)
And now I'm off to finish preparing for the interview.  Clothes, notebook, maybe my reading glasses. I hear wearing glasses to an interview increases your chances as you are perceived as being smarter!  :)

Sorry for the rushed writing!  Hope for the best and wish me luck!
Thanks!


ps. Writing this post made me break out into a sweat!

pss. The interview is with at least 5 people, that's almost like public speaking!

5 comments:

AnniePod said...

Yes! You look very very smart. This may sound a little like a fortune cookie but whatever your trues needs are will be filled.

Almost Monday said...

Thanks Diane! I think it went really well! I enjoyed meeting everyone and think they had great questions and concerns. One of them has been reading this blog. But I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing. :) I want to make a fully informed decision and want them to do the same! The are second interviewing 5 people. The last 3 on Wednesday. So I'll know more by the end of next week. If nothing else I feel more confident in my interviewing skills! :)

Jennifer Grimm said...

I hear you on the "good fit for me". I'm also struggling with which is more important- money or happiness. I'm trying to find a balance but it's so hard! But I know myself and I know that in the long run a job that doesn't fit me isn't going to be a job I keep for more than a year or two. Then it's back to square one.

Almost Monday said...

Jenna, I kept my last poor fitting job for 5 years. Started to feel like the 11 year bad marriage I didn't leave. and both require therapy. :)

kristie said...

A "good fit" is vital! Good for you for making it happen :) Hang in there, Serene!!